2003-11-03 - 7:08 a.m.
I stayed up to about 2:30 last night talking with Stephanie. I did something that I'm still rather surprised about, but not regretting. I listened to my intuition for once, that voice that laughs at me every time I ignore it and it turns out to be right. It was right about a lot of things last night.
She feels stuck in a decision between staying with her boyfriend, or breaking up with him and forming a stronger relationship with me. I wasn't sure what to do at first. Sure, I'd like her to leave him for me, but I feel bad for him, and I don't know what would make her happiest. So I spent a lot of last night trying to figure that out. Turns out she didn't know, but I was able to figure it out anyway. At least I hope I was, this is all I have to go on.
The choice seems obvious to me. She is already with him. He isn't about to go off to college next year, she likes him a lot; stay with him. But she's as smart as that, and realizes all those things, and she still doesn't know. Reassess the situation. If this is causing her so much trouble, part of her must feel very strongly that she'd be happier with me. On further thought, I realized that she may not want to be in the same relationship for three years anyway. So I decided to tell her to break up with him.
The choice is hers, and I'll support whatever she decides, but I've already made my choice. I never thought I'd do that, because I never thought it would be what's best for her. And I can't know what is best for her, but all I can do is try my hardest to make her happy, and hope for the best.
