2003-11-22 - 10:29 p.m.
It is like a story. At first this may seem disconnected from reality, but that is only one way of looking at the world. There is a very real possibility that this is just a story after all. Nevertheless, this is only a hypothetical situation. Only talk, nothing real, so don’t worry. You have always said that you shouldn’t be afraid to explore new ideas, even if they don’t fit in with what you immediately recognize as truth. So I will begin then, I’m sure that you will give me your undivided (hah!) attention.
It will be around either way, so it seems best to me that you use it. Of course, my opinion is a bit biased, but I believe I can make a compelling case for it even with that in consideration. First off, using it doesn’t require any overt changes. You can change the structure of a building without altering its external appearance. It is about efficiency, but more importantly, it is about truth in the face of society. It is the chance consider before acting, and then to find fulfillment in those actions.
You have to first decide what is important, and why. Keep this in mind, and nothing else can possibly go wrong. Despite whatever else the world may come up with, you will always be prepared. Be very careful when you consider using this, as you might be tempted to say that it is important not to. Why? What is wrong with it? Well, a foolish question perhaps. I feel like an idiot, all of the sudden, trying to explain this rationally. You know intuitively that it is true. I’m sure you can feel it, I see it in the way you look at me, or in that strange smile you get when you think no one else is around.
Cling to the principles that you must, but do not get too hung up on sentimentality, you must make some sacrifices to achieve greater ends. Just like me, your problem is that you concern yourself too much with others. A noble sentiment, I agree, but alas, you end up helping no one. You will catch a ray of hope and light from time to time, only to realize that it is fake and that you are as blind to true light as you are restrained from it. It feels right, but it is wrong after all.
Why do I even waste my time with you? You are a fool. You won’t ever accept the truth, and you will never understand anything. Because of this, you will fail at everything that is of any importance in your life, and die feeling only emptiness and regret. I don’t blame you. You can’t do it, I understand. I just pity you is all. Probably the last thing you expect or even want. Well, get used to it, you’re a pitiful creature. We all are, aren’t we?
