2003-12-22 - 10:56 p.m.
I feel like something's happening. I'm being assaulted from every direction. Why now? I was ready for it before, but now... this will cause me a great deal of distress. Surely I'll survive, but I don't know if I'll ever be the same. But I guess everything is changing anyway.
And yet this is only a vague feeling I have in the back of my mind. I'm quite happy right now, almost exstatic. The me trapped inside is feeling a little stressed and frustrated, but I who am typing at this computer, who end up making the difference, find it all quite amusing, and I'm ready to see where it takes me. Perhaps this distinction is unhealthy. It's not like it really is two different people though, just the same person looking at things in different ways.
