2004-01-08 - 8:11 a.m.
Well, last night concluded the first week of my relationship with Lisa. I have to say it's been an interesting time, and I'm looking forward to what the future holds. There have been times where I've allowed myself to be distracted, but that's to be expected, and I'm getting better at avoiding that all the time.
Stephanie was more upset than I thought she might be, though that is understandable. I don't want her to be unhappy, but I can't deny that I was pleased by this. It's just that at least it shows that she cares, and it's nice to know. We've continued talking, though it is weird at times. I think it will get better.
The only problem I had is that when we actually talked about it, she asked me to promise her not to stay with Lisa if I thought she were second best. What is she trying to say by this?! I don't know what she would have meant if it wasn't her. Why would she suggest that I go back to her after leaving me though? Does she still not know? Bringing back that uncertainty hurts, but I don't blame her. We've both made choices though, and I'm going to see this through.
Lisa had a dream about David the night before last. He came to her and said that he'd been stupid, and wanted her back. She took him back of course, but in her dream, she felt bad for me. In reality, she doesn't know what she'd do. I still think she'd take him back, but she wouldn't be much happier for it because she'd miss me. Perhaps after enough time passes, she will prefer me over him. I think that's possible.
I'm a little nervous about how fast things seem to be moving between us. I mean, it makes sense, as we've always been so physical, but it still surprises me. We kissed for the first time on New Year's, and in only a week after that I've done things with her that I'd never done in the months that I'd dated my previous girlfriends. Nothing terribly risky or regrettable mind you. I'm guessing things will level out pretty soon; otherwise, she'd be staying over this weekend, and it is definitely much too early for that.
