2004-02-24 - 8:38 p.m.
I'm optimistic about the future once again. Little things still seem to be holding me back, but all and all, I'm moving to my goals more quickly with every passing day. I'm curious how much of this is because of the change in the weather. Part of it must be that my mood is improved during spring, but also I think it makes the passing of time seem all the more imminent. I sense exhileration in the air. Something may be coming, or perhaps I'm going to it. Either way, I plan to be prepared for it.
Things with Lisa have been chaotic, but I think I'm coming to a comfortable position with her. It almost seemed like she wanted to break up for a while, since she has yet to get over David. It is obvious to her that they won't get back together, but I'm always afraid that they will. I mean, I don't know that it would be good for her, but she thinks it would be. I'd be happy for her if it did help her, but I'd just feel all the more useless. I just want to help people, but it seems to consistently happen that I'm not the one meant to do it-- it is never with my power. Nevertheless, she has been more reasonable lately, and I'm trying to be a bit sterner so that she'll hopefully treat me with more consideration. She can be difficult to be around, but that doesn't change my feelings for her.
School is alright. I'm writing a terrible paper for English, but oh well. Politics is fairly easy, and I'll always struggle with Latin, but that is about it. I'm working on several projects for the companies I work for as well as some personal ones which I hope to finish this summer.
DDR is enjoyable, but I'm having a difficult time finding people at the right level to enjoy it with. Most of my good friends only play now and then when I'm around, and don't get a chance to improve. Then there are some really good people, but they don't do anything else asides from dance dance, and thus aren't very interesting. Oh well, it is fun either way. There are only two songs left that I can't seem to pass on Max 2, and I'm gonna get So Deep by next week.
